Feeling of personal nothingness...

I live at the mercy of God. All my problems are solved by Him and His Grace. I sometimes wrongly think that I am the doer. This is great blunder. I am not the doer of any kind of good, but I am the doer of actions driven by desires and ill passions. My prayer to Him slowly washes away the sins of mine and allow me to live. All events in my life occur at the mercy of God only. I feel I am nothing.
This is a fact.
I want to be nothing...
I want to cling on to the Lotus Feet of God as dust particles birth after birth...
I am nothing...