I must change myself constantly

• With the advance in age, attitudes are changing very fast...
• I am getting detached from material aspects of life, to a large extent...
• I am now more interested in realizing the self by asking the same question WHO AM I, AGAIN AND AGAIN
• Variety of answers crowd my mind. The loudest one is I AM A CHILD OF GOD WHO GOT MORE AND MORE INTERESTED IN GOD HIMSELF....
• I have enjoyed my life and I have little interest in higher material achievements by attaining  name, fame , wealth, money and pleasure....
• I wish to work a bit harder to break monotony and boredom of life....
• I listened to thousands of lectures from which I could not almost learn a single thing. I now realize that I AM MY OWN TEACHER WHO CAN BRING REVOLUTIONS IN MY OWN LIFE...
• No external teacher can teach me anything....as it is too difficult a task. 
• Mostly people are self-learners.
• People are mostly self-trained and self-motivated and hence can get things done , as and when required
• Hence, I NEED TO DEPEND ON SELF FOR ALL MATTERS OF LIFE AND LIVING
• I MUST BE MY OWN BOSS FOR EVER...
• I MUST CHANGE MYSELF 'TO BE MY OWN BOSS' FOR ALL MATTERS
• I MUST BE SELF-RELIANT
• I MUST NOT DEPEND ON OTHERS, BUT ON GOD ONLY
• LET ME EXPLORE MY POTENTIAL TO CREATE AND INNOVATE TILL THE GOAL IS REACHED....
• MOSTLY, I WANT TO REMAIN ALONE AND WORK SILENTLY....
• The ultimate goal of achieving PEACE LIES IN WORKING SILENTLY FOR THE BENEFIT AND WELFARE OF FAMILY AND THEN THE SOCIETY....